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Who Am I?

By Judah Dorsey

In the fall of 2021, I decided to memorize a poem by Deitrich Boenhoffer titled, "Who Am I?" In it, Bonhoeffer wrestles with the nature of his imprisonment by nazi German powers. At times he carries himself resolutely, fearless of depositions and death, like one accustomed to win. Other times he bears imprisonment like a caged bird, struggling for breath as though hands were comprising his throat.

I like this poem because I think we can all relate to it to some degree. Obviously, we are not wrongfully imprisoned, opposing nazi powers, or subject to the death sentence of a maniacal dictator. At the same time, we each have our own struggles and daily battles. We are victorious some days, sucking wind on others, and sometimes bereft of all fight and life. I like this poem because it really shows us who Dietrich Bonhoeffer is. Does he hold to his faith in the face of captivity and death? How does his faith inform how he lives amidst his suffering? What actually brings him comfort during this horrible trial near the end of his life?

Recently in the Capital Fellows program, we have taken several personality assessments to gain a better understanding of what motivates and drives us. These assessments have been very helpful in better understanding ourselves and our vocational path. While these assessments have been valuable assets in job searching and self-reflection, there is a limit to how deep they can uncover who we are.

While I am grateful for all the assessments, discussions, meals, and sermons we go through as fellows, I am most grateful for their fellowship. I am beyond thankful to have

friends who support and care for me in my sufferings and daily battles. Through joys and sadness, laughter and longing, euphoria and despair, the Capital Fellows program has helped me better answer the question: Who am I?

Quoting the Pastor, Martyr, Prophet, and Spy…

"Whoever I am, thou knowest, O God, I am thine."


Judah Dorsey is a member of the Capital Fellows class of 2023-24. He is from Redmond, WA, and is a graduate of Covenant College. This year, he is working as an ecclesial intern in Worship Ministry at McLean Presbyterian Church in McLean, VA.


Pictures From The Week

Fellows helping serve lunch to staff at MPC.

Carter and pastor Rob running into each other in Charlottesville at a UVA-UNC men's basketball game!

Judah and Spencer go to an Ash Wednesday service.

Discussion at Capital Commons this past Monday evening.


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