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Wonder at The Mystery

By Mattie MacDonald

Advent is the perfect time to celebrate God’s mystery. In this season, we celebrate the Incarnation, a perfect example of God’s incomprehensible creativity, complexity, and deep love for His children. We marvel at the mysteries inherent in the birth of the God-Man and that He’s coming again. Our God chose to live as one of us and die for us. It is unfathomable, but that doesn’t make it less true.

There are a multitude of questions I circle back to when dealing with the mysteries of faith. How is Jesus fully God and fully man? 100% + 100% = 200%, doesn’t it? How do we have responsibility for our actions if God has decreed they are to happen? How is God fully in control if we make our own decisions? How do we reconcile divine sovereignty with the existence of sin and pain? How are we infinitely worthy but also completely unworthy of the love God has lavished on us? As a person who loves clear and direct answers, these murky and tension-filled aspects of God sometimes leave me unsettled, but I’ve had to face them head on this semester. This has sometimes left me full of questions that I, being decidedly NOT God, can never fully answer.

What has been confirmed to me from the discussions the Fellows have during roundtable, class, and with one another is yes, these questions are hard! We can dig and dig and dig, scour scripture, and discuss these questions at length, but we may never fully have the answer. However, what I’ve learned is how okay that is. Instead of the intense frustration of not “getting it,” I’m beginning to see the call to humility and reverence that is inherent in discussing these mysteries of God.

At a recent roundtable, we talked about how the problem of sin is impossible for us to solve. The solution of the God-Man Jesus is an answer only God could have come up with. God says in Isaiah 55:9, “For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.” Of course God can come up with solutions and have characteristics that are incomprehensible to us. Our creator is so much higher than us, and that’s wonderful! Recognizing God’s greatness compared to our frailty makes Jesus’ death on the cross more meaningful, our adoration sweeter, and us humbler.

I am never going to stop asking questions and trying to find answers. And I shouldn’t. By asking these questions, I learn more about who God is and understand the beauty of the resurrection more fully. However, these last few months have taught me to say “Wow how awesome is our God” instead of being consumed by displeasure when I ask a question that my human brain can’t fully understand. God’s mystery shows me how worthy of praise He truly is.


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